Like last wish for the new year, this time still the same, having baby this year Al. Though we know the circumstances still uncertain, but we should always optimistic, when this pandemic over we’ll have small family. It’s your idea as how happy carrying a baby while having dinner with your friends, it sent sign that in need too much, just the circumstances still not favor on us.
Indeed it’s look like that I am so phobia with this pandemic, but calculating the risk there’s so much component uncontrollable, like having contacts with too many suspects. It’s proof also your physic not always well too. That’s why we couldn’t put our kids on risk, putting you and our kids in uncertainty.
Sometimes I doubt also with my decision in keeping tight safety, neglected the chance which not always favor on us, that time sending heart so mellow that incite to do something without judgment. Then suddenly realized when seeing small kids suffered on the bed, it cannot happen to our kids. They should have a well life, away from something our egoistic judgment.
Zone comfort
Can’t deny that our inner is so in need to start our small family, if we could dismiss the uncertainty component then we are on right track. The point is already think for perhaps hundreds times that still couldn’t find a better way. I am not blocking your dream, reach it whatever already in your unconscious mind, it had to be get, it’s your parents dream too.
Initially already promised to your dad to keep your dream alive with conditions safety on guards, it’s a commitment though it’s up to you to change according your needs. Even we know no matter how well we reach our dream, we’ll always back to family. When talking about family, then everything back to neutral line, for what whatever we struggle in study.
Nowadays pandemic has changed our survival, that sometimes we should see our position, not to be radically changed but adapting with the current conditions. Again I’m not blocking your way, we’re together on same direction, just sometimes need to consider any options ahead. There’s always better shortcuts in between our way, to reach our point in family.
Time to consider any options
Almost two years knowing you with so much energy to live, a girl with soft kind heart that so much of me inside. Sometimes so nervous when no real news in between, but calmly down as you are on your own, as independent chick, there’s nothing to be worried about. Though if like last unwell was still bringing heart beating, you should know that you have my heart, kindly take care.
Knowing that you’re OK always bring a big relieve, I knew that voice DM hey in every sign, it brought lips bite sometimes. Can’t do like this for too long, it have to be start our family, adapting the thing perhaps need time. As everything have to start from beginning, as beyond comfort zone everyone need time to settle.
Unfortunately, a cold water always kicking the childish behavior, like cat who reluctantly touches the water. This moment in starting new year, we wish a better circumstances ahead so that we could start our family. Always you’re in my mind Al.
